No I am not talking about the hit TV show. And no, I am not directionally challenged. I am talking about how I feel when I walk around my house. I wander around, trying to figure out what I am going to do and end up doing absolutely NOTHING! I just don't understand why I can't seem to get my act together!! I know what I need to do to make my house a home. And somehow I manage to muddle my way through the day and accomplish very little. Then I sit there and beat myself up over what I didn't do that day. Why do I do that? Why can't I just make myself do the laundry, and vacuum, and clean the kitchen or bathrooms, or pick up the clutter, or go through the piles that I create? I am completely LOST! Not sure what my purpose is anymore. Not sure what I am doing. Can't focus on anything.
I do the same thing with my weight. I complain. I get inspired by the contestants on The Biggest Loser. I hate looking at myself in the mirror or getting dressed. Why don't I just do something about it? You would think that if I am this unhappy with myself, I would be motivated to fix all these things that I think are wrong with me. BUT I DON'T!!
Something about me has to change! I am miserable! Even this blog has gone by the way side because I can't motivate myself to post! It's supposed to be helping me! Not hindering me!
I just need to put my big girl panties on and do what I need to do. I need a schedule. I need motivation. FlyLady is the best but only if you put it into practice. I can't even seem to do that right!!!
So I guess I need to just do it (as Nike would say)!!! But how? I am almost 40 and I feel like a kid avoiding my chores! That is not good. Please pray for me! I need all the help I can get!
- GrownUpMe
- I am a 41 year old stay at home mother of 3 awesome kids and wife to an amazing man for almost 20 years. This is my journey to what I define as being a grown up. There will probably be some laughs and some tears and I hope and pray that someone, besides me, benefits from my "Grown Up" insights.
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ReplyDeleteMaybe this will help: When I get overwhelmed and discouraged by the mountain of things I want/need to do, I spend a little time praying that God would show me ONE thing to work on. Just ONE. Then I take ONE ridiculously simple baby step on that ONE thing. And I do it the next day. And the next. Until improving that area is a habit. Then I move on to the next thing. It's a slower process than I'd ideally like, but it sticks and it's easy because I don't feel overwhelmed or guilty because I've given myself permission to just work on that ONE thing.
I find that things really snowball once I get going.
Well that's what works for me. I hope you find what works for you. You can do it!!!