No I am not talking about the hit TV show. And no, I am not directionally challenged. I am talking about how I feel when I walk around my house. I wander around, trying to figure out what I am going to do and end up doing absolutely NOTHING! I just don't understand why I can't seem to get my act together!! I know what I need to do to make my house a home. And somehow I manage to muddle my way through the day and accomplish very little. Then I sit there and beat myself up over what I didn't do that day. Why do I do that? Why can't I just make myself do the laundry, and vacuum, and clean the kitchen or bathrooms, or pick up the clutter, or go through the piles that I create? I am completely LOST! Not sure what my purpose is anymore. Not sure what I am doing. Can't focus on anything.
I do the same thing with my weight. I complain. I get inspired by the contestants on The Biggest Loser. I hate looking at myself in the mirror or getting dressed. Why don't I just do something about it? You would think that if I am this unhappy with myself, I would be motivated to fix all these things that I think are wrong with me. BUT I DON'T!!
Something about me has to change! I am miserable! Even this blog has gone by the way side because I can't motivate myself to post! It's supposed to be helping me! Not hindering me!
I just need to put my big girl panties on and do what I need to do. I need a schedule. I need motivation. FlyLady is the best but only if you put it into practice. I can't even seem to do that right!!!
So I guess I need to just do it (as Nike would say)!!! But how? I am almost 40 and I feel like a kid avoiding my chores! That is not good. Please pray for me! I need all the help I can get!