Just writing the word sends shivers up and down my spine!!!
Every December 31st, the thoughts start racing through my mind. What do I NEED to change?? What do I NEED to accomplish?? What do I NEED to push myself to do??
And every December 31st I come up with the same list I did the year before...
I WILL lose 150 pounds by Feb 1st!!!
I WILL get all of my scrapbooks up-to-date by Feb 1st!!!
I WILL exercise 4 hours a day/7 days a week!!!!
I WILL keep my house so incredibly clean that you, at any given moment, could eat off my floor!!!
I WILL read my Bible and spend 7 hours in prayer EVERY DAY!!!
(Yes I know these are unrealistic! Work with me here! I am making a point!)
And what happens to these lovely resolutions??
By Jan 1st, I have given up on every single one of them. Convinced to the core of my existence that I am not capable of accomplishing any of them!! Well...DUHHH!!! What was I thinking? Why did I try to set myself up for failure to begin with?
So this year I am setting some year-long goals. No set deadlines. I have decided that I am not going to hold myself to strict dates and numbers. It apparently doesn't work for me ;) These are things I have always wanted to try or do. Desires of my heart. No real change...just a different way of looking at things. And honestly...who needs the pressure of a deadline???
This is what I want to do...
1. Get Healthy
I know in order toaccomplish this I need to eat better and move more. That's it!!! No set weight loss. No-never eat anything sweet again-rigor.
2. Finish things
Sounds a little odd I know. But there are o many things that I have left unfinished!! Books I have started, scarves I have started, scrapbooks I have started (get the picture)...and never finished. I don't know if I will get to the unfinished projects in total but if I start something this year, I intend to finish it!
3. Scrapbook More
I used to do this all the time. But honestly, I haven't really done any scrapbooking in over a year!!! I don't need to get completely caught up. I am going to start where I am am and work my way through what I have. Included in this is more picture taking. I would like to document every week of the year but if I miss something--- that's okay too.
4. Learn Something New
I don't know what, but I am putting it out there.
5. Time with God
not MORE...just TIME!!
It's that simple!
Nothing else to it! No unrealistic expectations on myself.
Simple desires of my heart.
Maybe by December 31, 2011 I can tell you all that I met all my goals for the year. Then again, maybe I won't be able to. But in the great scheme of things, as long as I am doing something...
I HAVE WON!!!